Saturday, December 10, 2005


Ok here I am. Week one in Chicago slowly but steadily coming to an end. I am sitting in my apartment at the dining table, pecking away, watching Save the Last Dance with a bottle of Seagram's whiskey in front of me(I am not drinking!) and seeing the city get slowly engulfed with snow. I have been at home all day today trying hard to scrub off some greasy vessels and have almost completed cleaning up the kitchen.

I am thinking about things I have never had to think about. Like what am I going to do for dinner tonight, that I need to finish my laundry tomorrow, that I need to pick up groceries, that I need to apply for a Social Security Card, that I have no idea where I want to be tomorrow. Before leaving for Chicago, I had a chat with an Uncle and he asked me what plan I had for life and I thought about it for a moment just to reflect on the question and thought I have lots of things happening in the background but no... I had no plan for life as I am not sure what I want to do-I dont know where I want to be and what I want to achieve. Nothing and I told him that and he was astounded and I was subjected to a half hour's session on life, responsibilities and stuff. But really is it so bad if one does not have a plan for tomorrow?

All through my training when I joined work, with sessions on ambition and motivation and we were asked questions on where we see ourselves five years hence, and it seemed like the only answer that was expected was to be a team leader in 3 years and a project manager in 5 years and it drove me nuts. I did not want to say those answers because I did not know what the hell I wanted to be the next instant.

I still don't have the answers!!Bah!!


Blogger Kanishkaa said...

That question irks me too.Hate it when someone asks me that.guys who like to live for the moment need more space.I honestly never planned a move to Mumbai to work in cricinfo's editorial dept.It just happened out of the blue.I will be there by the end of this month.

p.s- u missed the mother of all evam huddles in Karthik's wedding.

5:03 AM  
Blogger Saraansh said...

Dont remind me...there are so many things I missed that I dont even want to think about them. Anyway, its not about living in the moment but its about genuinely not knowing what to do with oneself. That's it!!

10:29 AM  
Blogger RamantheB said...

maaru, why dont u come down to NYC for a weekend before i leave for india ? this weekend ??

9:31 PM  

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